To God Be All The Glory

I saw Prince Caspian today, and was convicted. Lucy confessed to Aslan that she saw him, and wanted to follow, but didn't because the others didn't see him. Aslan asked why didn't you follow me? She responds "because I wasn't brave enough." Oh that's so me! Because of fear and other's not seeing the same visions of God I do, I chicken out and don't follow or just plainly don't speak up.

I hear so many comments of how Duane and I are doing a great thing, how impressed people are of how we have a heart for orphans that shows. We have experienced people's admiration and praise. We try to humbly deny our doing and recognize God in it, but it hasn't been loud enough. Today I am convicted to share how Elijah came to be, and share also the answer to our immediate prayer request (the last post).

I would be lying to you if I told you that the move to Colorado was an easy one. I knew God moved us, and saw how He interacted in that process so I knew we were suppose to be here. But truthfully I was so alone in the transition and I was having many difficulties connecting with people (I need socialization and connection or I just don't thrive). I believed that God favored Duane, so I began to resent Duane and acted accordingly.

One evening early in August, I had a dream. When I awoke I knew it was God speaking to me...the details were great, and I remembered having the sense I had to remember this particular dream. So I did. I was standing in Africa, holding a little boy's hand. I experienced feelings of strife and commitment of love as I saw Duane approach through the grass as this boy and I stood watching. I leaned over to the boy and told him "I have to choose him". The heartache I experienced as I let the boy's hand go, and went to Duane, was great. I told Duane "I choose you", we embraced and Duane said "You can choose one". I went to the boy, swung him up in my arms and said "I choose this one." Yes, it could sound corny to you as you read it but I knew what God was saying in it all. Well, at least the message I thought He was saying and that was to choose Duane, everyday and always. It wasn't easy but with God's help and out of obedience I turned my resentment to a commitment of love and God has built our marriage stronger.

As many of you know, and as you read the beginning posts on this blog I went to Uganda, Africa. It was only because of much prayer and this dream that Duane and I knew I was to go - and by myself.

Many of you who know us too know we have always had a heart for adoption. Many doors have been closed as we pursued other paths in this journey. What you do not know is I had given up in adoption. God kept closing the doors each time, and I couldn't go through the disappointment again. Duane on the other hand was more convicted than ever that we were to adopt - and from Africa. We had been looking at agency's, one of them being Addy's Hope. We were 95% sure that we were to pursue through them, but that 5% stopped us from signing the papers and letting go of more money. August 29th I was on their website again and stopped to look at their "waiting angels". Low and behold I saw the little boy that was in my dream! I knew he was suppose to be with us, and knew I was looking at the face of our son. Because of our activities Duane and I were unable to talk that day and I had to wait until first thing on August 30th. He told me to call.

I called the agency, and told of our interest in the little boy named Elijah. And found that there were two other people considering him, but they would put us on the "list". I was disappointed and thought how wrong I was when I saw this little boy. Thanks to the godly man I am married to, he reminded me that if it is true God will prevail...two people in line is nothing to Him! We were told we wouldn't know anything until Tuesday of the following week. The NEXT day I received a call, asking if we still wanted Elijah, and was given permission to talk to my husband about it and then give them a call. I told them, I didn't need to. Duane and I were together on this and know God's plan is to have Elijah in our home.

This last Saturday we received a phone call from Addy's Hope stating that Elijah's birth mother was heading to the judge's office as she was going to sign the papers relinquishing her rights. A block away from the office, she pulled the cab over and went home, for she just couldn't sign the papers. Our hearts were torn. Torn because we were fearful that Elijah's birth mother had changed her mind, but also torn because the pain this mother is experiencing to have to give her child up - a pure act of love. We prayed and also asked so many of you to pray with us.

Today we received another call. Elijah's paperwork was signed by his mother, the judge was signing this afternoon (which should be done now) and the lawyer was picking up all the paperwork either tomorrow or Wednesday. What does this mean? We are parents to a 3 year old Liberian boy! We give all the praise and thanksgiving to God...who has orchestrated this and will finish what He has started.

We still need prayer. We still have a big obstacle ahead of us. This obstacle is part of the Liberian government who wants to revisit and change the adoption procedure. Please pray that all details are worked out for God's glory and that God will break down all strongholds and our son, as well as many other orphans will be able to come home.

God, I am so sorry I didn't have the boldness and courage needed to tell of the great things you have done and continue to do. Help me to be more bold for you. You get all the praise and honor that you so richly deserve. Thank you, God for hearing our prayers, take joy my King of the praises and thanksgivings from your children.

I praise your greatness, my God the King;

I will praise you forever and ever.

I will praise you every day;

I will praise you forever and ever.

The Lord is great and worthy of our praise;

no one can understand how great He is.

Parents will tell their children what you have done.

They will retell your might acts,

wonderful majesty, and glory.

And I will think about your miracles.

They will tell about the amazing things you do,

and I will tell how great you are.

They will remember your great goodness

and will sing about your fairness.

The Lord is kind and shows mercy.

He does not become angry quickly but is full of love.

The Lord is good to everyone;

he is merciful to all he has made.

Lord, everything you have made will praise you;

those who belong to you will bless you.

They will tell about the glory of your kingdom

and will speak about your power.

Then everyone will know the mighty things you do

and the glory and majesty of your kingdom.

Your kingdom will go on and on,

and you will rule forever.

The Lord will keep all his promises;

he is loyal to all he has made.

The Lord helps those who have been defeated

and takes care of those who are in trouble.

All living things look to you for food,

and you give it to them at the right time.

You open your hand,

and you satisfy all living things.

Everything the Lord does is right.

He is loyal to all he has made.

The Lord is close to everyone who prays to him,

to all who truly pray to him.

He gives those who respect him what they want.

He listens when they cry, and he saves them.

The Lord protects everyone who loves him,

but he will destroy the wicked.

I will praise the Lord.

Let everyone praise his holy name forever.

Psalm 145 (New Century Version)